The Lord was gracious to us again….we were able to go down to Windsor on the weekend and have a great visit with friends and family. We hung out at moms house mostly and everyone came there. Saturday morning was lots of fun, we decided to go to the local market. With grandma, grandpa, moms and dads with 7 little ones in tow we sampled the products….popcorn, sausage, fresh bread, more sausage, chocolate and lots of fruits and veges….kids just loved it…I think the big ones did too. I sure did. Monday we headed back home but stopped in Kitchener to visit with Atilla and Caroline…more food and friends and family…wow we are so blessed…
By the time we got home my hair was just coming out in handfuls so Rebekah helped me again….she cut it first and then shaved it…its less messy this way. I thought maybe it will be easier this time but its still hard loosing my hair…then a faithful friend sent me this reminder:
“the Lord gave you such a beautiful gift for all your life until now, can you sacrifice it to Him? Can you give it back to Him in thanksgiving and say to Him, “Thank you Lord for giving me this wonderful gift for all these years, I now give it back to you for as long as You wish it?
May the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ extend itself to you to such an extent that you will be enabled to do this for the One Who sacrificed all for you.”
Thank you Lord, this sure puts everything back into perspective….there is a purpose, there is a plan…I rest in that.
“The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away. Blessed be the name of the LORD” (Job 1:21).
Well Thursday came and went….I did not get my chemo treatment….my blood counts were still too low so the doc held off treatment for another week. Good news is that things are headed in the right direction, red, white and platelet blood counts are going up on their own…this extra week will just give them more time to recover. Doc is happy with how treatment is going, the chemo is working….he is lowering the dosage so the tumor will shrink but not me :)
Please continue praying that my family and I will “Turn our eyes upon Jesus and the things of this earth will become strangely dim.”
In His Hands,
Miriam
Friday, August 13, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Grace and More Grace
My hemoglobin and platelet levels were falling rapidly Tues so I was admitted to hospital to get a transfusion. I felt really tired yesterday, (like I ran a marathon) but today Fri I feel a lot better. God willing we are going down to Windsor to visit family this weekend.
Please continue to pray that my body will bounce back enough to be able to receive my next chemo treatment on Thursday.
He giveth more grace when the burdens grow greater,
He sendeth more strength when the labors increase;
To added affliction He addeth His mercies,
To multiplied trials His multiplied peace.
When we have exhausted our store of endurance,
When our strength has failed ere the day is half done,
When we reach the end of our hoarded resources
Our Father’s full giving is only begun.
His love has no limit; His grace has no measure,
His power no boundary known unto men;
For out of His infinite riches in Jesus
He giveth and giveth and giveth again. By: Annie Johnson Flint
My prayer is that as you read these words you too will experience this grace as I so richly do every moment.
In His Hands,
Miriam
Please continue to pray that my body will bounce back enough to be able to receive my next chemo treatment on Thursday.
He giveth more grace when the burdens grow greater,
He sendeth more strength when the labors increase;
To added affliction He addeth His mercies,
To multiplied trials His multiplied peace.
When we have exhausted our store of endurance,
When our strength has failed ere the day is half done,
When we reach the end of our hoarded resources
Our Father’s full giving is only begun.
His love has no limit; His grace has no measure,
His power no boundary known unto men;
For out of His infinite riches in Jesus
He giveth and giveth and giveth again. By: Annie Johnson Flint
My prayer is that as you read these words you too will experience this grace as I so richly do every moment.
In His Hands,
Miriam
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Relief
Its been a week since I had my chemo treatment. Wow what a difference….God has brought me relief, sweet relief.....by Sat-Sun the time between taking my pain meds kept increasing…honestly I kept forgetting to take them….but that is a good thing because that meant the pain was subsiding and the tumor is shrinking??!!. (we hope) By Mon I was totally off the pain meds and feeling really good. The doc told us if this chemo works, it will happen fast and praise be to God it did…Its a lot easier chemo treatment this time, I just has some sores in my mouth and esophagus but no nausea. At this point my hair is still in tact but they said that will probably go again :(
My family doc called to see how I was doing yesterday and was very pleased…he said just roll with it and enjoy….and that is exactly what we are doing….Christina and Ryan and kids are coming tomorrow for the long weekend, my friend Mary is coming to visit from California next week….and if I feel good we’ll make more plans…
I had this verse sent to me this week and I just wanted to share it… Its absolutely amazing that something Jesus said to a fisherman in Jerusalem, who was confused, scared, and not having much faith at the time would mean SO much to a confused, scared etc. child of His in Trout Creek almost 2000 years later….You just can’t get more personal than that….words cannot express it but I feel loved….
Jesus said, “What I am doing you do not understand now, but you will understand later.” John 13:7
Please keep praying...
In His Hands
Miriam
My family doc called to see how I was doing yesterday and was very pleased…he said just roll with it and enjoy….and that is exactly what we are doing….Christina and Ryan and kids are coming tomorrow for the long weekend, my friend Mary is coming to visit from California next week….and if I feel good we’ll make more plans…
I had this verse sent to me this week and I just wanted to share it… Its absolutely amazing that something Jesus said to a fisherman in Jerusalem, who was confused, scared, and not having much faith at the time would mean SO much to a confused, scared etc. child of His in Trout Creek almost 2000 years later….You just can’t get more personal than that….words cannot express it but I feel loved….
Jesus said, “What I am doing you do not understand now, but you will understand later.” John 13:7
Please keep praying...
In His Hands
Miriam
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Report from visit to Sudbury
When peace like a river attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, Its is well with my soul. (v1 of Hymn “It is well with my soul”)
I thank you all again for praying for us as we went up to Sudbury for our appointment yesterday. He is so faithful in answering….Christ with His peace attended with us and I can truly say….IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL….
It was more information that we did NOT want to hear again…but knowing Gods hand is in it makes it go down sweet, just like a spoonful of sugar with bitter medicine.
There is one more tumor on the liver, which makes it 5 now. Doc gave us 2 options, one is not doing anything which would mean soon the tumor would get so big that it would shut down the liver etc, so that is pretty self explanatory.
Other one is putting me on chemo to try to shrink the tumor. This time its not kill the whole tumor but control it. It’s a different chemo that I had before and the doc is hopeful that it will at least bring it under control and relieve the pain. Sometimes between cycles there can be many days and months of relief.
The tumor is inoperable….it would be too much for my body to handle with recovery etc…doc thinks the time could be better used trying chemo.
All the other areas they tested, bone scan, pelvis, abdomen etc are all clear, that was really good to hear.
Please pray that this chemo would be tolerated and it will shrink the tumor.
Please pray that God would continually give grace and strength to myself and my family that through this we can show the world and all the heavenly beings observing this drama how great and worthy of praise our God is.
I also pray for you that are reading this blog, if you know the Lord, press on, keep trusting even if this doesn’t make much sense now, you WILL be praising Him for it in Glory. Then for my friends and family that don’t know the Lord, please seek Him, you will never regret it….He will show Himself to you, you just come as you are.
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us…for we were saved in this Hope… Romans 8:18, 24a.
In His Hands,
Miriam
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, Its is well with my soul. (v1 of Hymn “It is well with my soul”)
I thank you all again for praying for us as we went up to Sudbury for our appointment yesterday. He is so faithful in answering….Christ with His peace attended with us and I can truly say….IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL….
It was more information that we did NOT want to hear again…but knowing Gods hand is in it makes it go down sweet, just like a spoonful of sugar with bitter medicine.
There is one more tumor on the liver, which makes it 5 now. Doc gave us 2 options, one is not doing anything which would mean soon the tumor would get so big that it would shut down the liver etc, so that is pretty self explanatory.
Other one is putting me on chemo to try to shrink the tumor. This time its not kill the whole tumor but control it. It’s a different chemo that I had before and the doc is hopeful that it will at least bring it under control and relieve the pain. Sometimes between cycles there can be many days and months of relief.
The tumor is inoperable….it would be too much for my body to handle with recovery etc…doc thinks the time could be better used trying chemo.
All the other areas they tested, bone scan, pelvis, abdomen etc are all clear, that was really good to hear.
Please pray that this chemo would be tolerated and it will shrink the tumor.
Please pray that God would continually give grace and strength to myself and my family that through this we can show the world and all the heavenly beings observing this drama how great and worthy of praise our God is.
I also pray for you that are reading this blog, if you know the Lord, press on, keep trusting even if this doesn’t make much sense now, you WILL be praising Him for it in Glory. Then for my friends and family that don’t know the Lord, please seek Him, you will never regret it….He will show Himself to you, you just come as you are.
For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us…for we were saved in this Hope… Romans 8:18, 24a.
In His Hands,
Miriam
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Something new
Yesterday I started getting some excruciating pain on my right side. Went to ER and they figure it is coming from the tumor on my liver. They gave me Percaset, its not really doing much. It is pretty painful......I am going to my oncologist Mon morning at 8:00am when I will get all the results from the scans and get this pain under control.
I would like to ask for prayer, that Gods grace would richly sustain me and help me go through this.
thanks,
In His Hands,
Miriam
I would like to ask for prayer, that Gods grace would richly sustain me and help me go through this.
thanks,
In His Hands,
Miriam
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Another Amazing Story!!!!
My sister in law Angela shared this with me. Please read the June 23 post and be blessed and encouraged....God is working His grand and glourious plan all over the world....and we mere humans are graciously given the ablity to see little glimpses.....Praise be to God....
http://www.joniandfriends.org/jonis-corner/special-message-joni/
Please pray for Joni as she embarks on her next battle. All for the Glory of God!!!!
Miriam
P.S. There is always someone worse off than us in our perspective but in Gods economy its His perfect plan.
http://www.joniandfriends.org/jonis-corner/special-message-joni/
Please pray for Joni as she embarks on her next battle. All for the Glory of God!!!!
Miriam
P.S. There is always someone worse off than us in our perspective but in Gods economy its His perfect plan.
Writing from Sudbury (posting a few days later)
I am so blessed for having the Lord watch so closely after me. I have been having light nausea for the last 10-15 days; it’s been getting worse, so last week I called my oncologist. They set me up for an appointment Wed (squeezed me in before the holiday) Well thanks be to God, after a lot of testing they found that the calcium level in my blood was way up high in the critical level, usually people are in a coma at this level. They immediately admitted me to start getting it lowered and to re hydrate me. Bad things happen to major organs if this doesn’t get resolved quickly. So as I write today (Thursday) these things are getting resolved quite nicely. But now the next and bigger question is why did my body do this? So far we just treated the symptom. He is now sending me for a bone scan, abdominal, lung and brain scan. These should indicate what caused this…we hope. It’s typically a sign the cancer is active somewhere in my body.
Its always so exciting to write down some of the providential things that happened, you just cannot deny that Gods hands are in all this…..we were planning on a trip to Ohio for the long week end so I would have been a lot farther along in the critical state…..I got an appointment before the weekend….I got admitted, they had a bed…….I am in the hospital so the scans can get done here and now…. I would have had to wait a lot more in North Bay to get these tests done…..and on top of all this I got a private room….God is so amazing…
Again we ask for your prayers. We know you are praying and that’s why we ask because God is faithful and He answers His children’s prayers. Not that this is an easy place to be but His grace just keeps coming every morning and lasts well into the night. Then when we wake up it’s a whole new batch of fresh grace and He is not stingy….He just pours it on. We are having awesome days as a family full of laughter and giggling….the peace that God put on every inch of this household is mind-boggling....Nandor is busy doing some projects around the house, children are busy and having fun with all the summer activities…
“Therefore we do not lose heart, even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day.” 2 Cor 16-18
Also please pray that this would be more and more true of the whole family. I wish I could explain it but the real me “inward man” is so full of hope and joy that sometimes I just break down and cry and ask God why me? Why am I your child? But the good news is that is can be any of yours that are reading this blog….God loves you and wants this for everyone who believes in Him… John 3:16.
And please pray for this “outward man” also, I have been feeling touch and go..one day good next not so good. Pray that the Lord would intervene and heal my body, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt He can do it if its His will and plan.
We love you all,
In His Hands
Miriam
Its always so exciting to write down some of the providential things that happened, you just cannot deny that Gods hands are in all this…..we were planning on a trip to Ohio for the long week end so I would have been a lot farther along in the critical state…..I got an appointment before the weekend….I got admitted, they had a bed…….I am in the hospital so the scans can get done here and now…. I would have had to wait a lot more in North Bay to get these tests done…..and on top of all this I got a private room….God is so amazing…
Again we ask for your prayers. We know you are praying and that’s why we ask because God is faithful and He answers His children’s prayers. Not that this is an easy place to be but His grace just keeps coming every morning and lasts well into the night. Then when we wake up it’s a whole new batch of fresh grace and He is not stingy….He just pours it on. We are having awesome days as a family full of laughter and giggling….the peace that God put on every inch of this household is mind-boggling....Nandor is busy doing some projects around the house, children are busy and having fun with all the summer activities…
“Therefore we do not lose heart, even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day.” 2 Cor 16-18
Also please pray that this would be more and more true of the whole family. I wish I could explain it but the real me “inward man” is so full of hope and joy that sometimes I just break down and cry and ask God why me? Why am I your child? But the good news is that is can be any of yours that are reading this blog….God loves you and wants this for everyone who believes in Him… John 3:16.
And please pray for this “outward man” also, I have been feeling touch and go..one day good next not so good. Pray that the Lord would intervene and heal my body, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt He can do it if its His will and plan.
We love you all,
In His Hands
Miriam
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