Thursday, September 24, 2009

Contact Info

My laptop is not picking up wireless signals so I am stuck. Hopefully this weekend we will figure it out. In the meantime my room phone # is 1-416-413-8065. I cannot call out long distance but I can get calls in. If I am not there my room mate will pick up or you can leave a message.

Yesterday my treatment was cancelled so Nandor and I went for a long walk in downtown TO. Today I went for a cabbagetown tour with a volunteer and my treatment will be at 3:20.

In His Hands,

Wednesday, September 23, 2009


Well, here I am in the big city of Toronto. I am overlooking Yorkdale mall and the never ending traffic. Nandor had a seminar to attend in the area today so we came yesterday and stayed at the Holiday Inn. God even had that planned… Today is my first radiation treatment at 2:30 then we will go over to the Princess Margaret Lodge to settle in for the next few days and Nandor will go home. This is all so new, I am a bit nervous but I really sense that the Lord is with me. I am so used to being with my family or having them close by… so that kind of hurts… but I know this has all been orchestrated by the Lord and His purposes will be revealed as I put one foot in front of the other and move forward for His glory....
Please pray with me that I will have opportunities to minister to others around me and that I would be sensitive to them. It is so easy in this situation to be self centered, self absorbed and miss what is going on around me. I have been given so much, Lord help me to give it away…
Also please pray that as I go through these radiation treatments, the bowels and other organs will not get damaged. I think I wrote this verse in the past but I will do it again, it means so much to me.

But now, thus says the Lord who created you:
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you
I have called you by your name;
You are mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.
For I AM the Lord your God.
Isaiah 43:1-3

Please pray for my family at home.

In His Hands,

Thursday, September 17, 2009

More News

We went to Sunnybrook yesterday and saw my new doctor. She has had experience with this cancer and her strong recommendation was that we start radiation therapy immediately. Long story short my treatments start next Wed Sept 23. I am now trying to get everything organized as far as getting to and from treatments, my stay in Toronto etc….It will be for 7 weeks, Mon to Fri. I will be staying at Princess Margaret Lodge and hoping through the Cancer Society I will be able to get rides to and from Toronto.

This is all a bit overwhelming, please pray that God would continually sustain and strengthen my family and I through this. Pray that we will see Him in everything.

“See God in everything, and God will calm and colour all that thou dost see!”

Thanks for praying,
In His Hands,

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Good News

Again its been a while since I wrote but finally I am feeling better. Its been tough, even though chemo is done I am now feeling the effects like nausea, joints pain, numb fingers and toes, stiff ness and pain in my fingers and every time I even thought about the computer I got nauseated. Ha,ha, they actually have a name for that, its called “associative nausea”. But God has been giving me the strength for the day and He is so faithful!!!!

When we saw the radiation doctor last time he suggested we continue treatment with radiation for 6 weeks, the docs were pretty sure there was some regrowth just because of the aggressive type of cancer it is but before they would proceed they ordered a CT scan to see what was happening after the chemo. I had the scan last week and yesterday we got the results. There is nothing there!!! Docs were stumped again… He said he will not do radiation but will pass me over to another doctor in Toronto Sunnybrook Hospital. We were very pleased, there is always wisdom in numbers. Then as I am writing this I got a phone call that my appointment is tomorrow morning at 10:30. Wow.. God is so good!!!

So as we are rejoicing in this time of refreshment/encouragement we are still leaning hard on the Lord. It’s hard to explain but it’s a very emotional time as far as how things will turn. I can go down one road and think its all over and the cancer is never coming back…that would probably be denial… then on the other hand I could go down the other road and think its all over and I have to go…but that is just plain excruciating. So I am learning I have no business going down either of those roads because God did not promise his grace for stuff like that (our worrying). He said He will give us the grace we need today and tomorrow will take care of itself. I am slowly learning to take each day as they come, live life to its fullest and be about my Fathers business. And to my amazement there is no fear, anxiety but a carefreeness, safety and a satisfaction that is unexplainable…I am safe in the arms of Jesus.

But seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Matthew 6:33-34

In His Hands,