Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Good News

Again its been a while since I wrote but finally I am feeling better. Its been tough, even though chemo is done I am now feeling the effects like nausea, joints pain, numb fingers and toes, stiff ness and pain in my fingers and every time I even thought about the computer I got nauseated. Ha,ha, they actually have a name for that, its called “associative nausea”. But God has been giving me the strength for the day and He is so faithful!!!!

When we saw the radiation doctor last time he suggested we continue treatment with radiation for 6 weeks, the docs were pretty sure there was some regrowth just because of the aggressive type of cancer it is but before they would proceed they ordered a CT scan to see what was happening after the chemo. I had the scan last week and yesterday we got the results. There is nothing there!!! Docs were stumped again… He said he will not do radiation but will pass me over to another doctor in Toronto Sunnybrook Hospital. We were very pleased, there is always wisdom in numbers. Then as I am writing this I got a phone call that my appointment is tomorrow morning at 10:30. Wow.. God is so good!!!

So as we are rejoicing in this time of refreshment/encouragement we are still leaning hard on the Lord. It’s hard to explain but it’s a very emotional time as far as how things will turn. I can go down one road and think its all over and the cancer is never coming back…that would probably be denial… then on the other hand I could go down the other road and think its all over and I have to go…but that is just plain excruciating. So I am learning I have no business going down either of those roads because God did not promise his grace for stuff like that (our worrying). He said He will give us the grace we need today and tomorrow will take care of itself. I am slowly learning to take each day as they come, live life to its fullest and be about my Fathers business. And to my amazement there is no fear, anxiety but a carefreeness, safety and a satisfaction that is unexplainable…I am safe in the arms of Jesus.

But seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Matthew 6:33-34

In His Hands,


  1. Dearest Miriam...we are praising God for the clear test results! Your honest journalling is such an ispiration and powerful testament of the amazing power of God in our lives, if only we let Him take over. May God grant you strength for the journey, hope and joy in renewal and healing, and may He always give you the peace that only He can give, and thank you for the great reminder to 'live in the NOW', and to cast all our cares upon HIM!! Love you so much, Martha

  2. Hi Miriam:-) xoxo I was so happy to read your update. God is all-knowing...isn't that humbling! I know you have chosen the FAITH path..the only path to travel. God has been by you and your families side from day one! WE are so happy to hear that there is no re-growth. PRAISE GOD!! We can only hope it stays that way. Either way..you are Blessed as Gods child! Enjoy the Fall with your family, see the splendor in Gods creation as the colors change. We all love you! Carolyn Prince

  3. Dearest Miriam...We are rejoicing with you that all your scans were clear...God is so good...We pray for strength for your journey ahead for whichever path that God may lead you down ...Your post is so uplifting and so true about living the "NOW"..It brings tears to my eyes the courage and strength that you have...Knowing that all your trust is in the Lord...Please know as always we love you all and if you need ANYTHING we are here...The Dehaans....xo

  4. Oh Miriam, I'm so happy to hear your good news. Praise God!! I hope you get your strength back and stop feeling nauseated!!
    God Bless you and your family!!