Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Weeping Yet Rejoicing with Joy Unspeakable

On Thursday we got more news we didn’t want to hear…..My calcium is still going up steadily and there is nothing the doc can really do about it. My tumor has grown from 9cm to 13cm, I can feel it a lot now but the pain isn’t too bad. They are putting me on chemo weekly now hoping that it will be more effective on the tumor and it will help bring the calcium down. I am also on Prednisone to help my platelets be able to replenish quicker. Doc has no explanation how my body can handle the calcium being so high…
But the neatest thing happened as we were going through the appointment, my nurse sat down and asked if she could ask us some questions….she asked what is it that is bringing us through this, is it our faith? We had the opportunity to share with her “the hope that lies within us” 1Peter3:15. What an encouragement to our hearts, yes, God is still moving, working and we get to be a part of it. So as the verse says below when “He reveals just a glimpse of His glory we are glad with exceeding joy”

“Beloved do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; But rejoice to the extent that you partake in Christ’s sufferings, that when His glory is revealed, you may also be glad with exceeding joy. Therefore let those who suffer according to the will of God commit their souls to Him in doing good, as to a faithful Creator.” 1 Peter 4:12, 13, 19

So going forward I am so excited to see what God is doing, as difficult as it is sometimes He keeps giving opportunities to enjoy my family, pray, learn, read a lot and continue growing in Him…I still have a purpose…every day He gives me, I have to live to the fullest until the time comes when He steps in and heals me or takes me home. He sure gives the grace I need everyday!!! And even more exciting is picturing and meditating on Heaven as the scripture describes it…here is a tidbit, I’m sure you never thought of heaven this way before ”a bright, vibrant and physical Heaven. free from sin, cancer, suffering and death and brimming with Christ’s presence, wondrous natural beauty, and the richness of human culture as God intended it. It will be a place with real people with real bodies enjoying close relationships with God and each other, eating, drinking, working, playing, traveling, worshiping and discovering.” R.A Like Paul says “sometimes I feel torn between the two….” Phil 1:23
My prayer is that those who don’t know Jesus as their Saviour would come to know Him so they can also have this Blessed Assurance.

Blessed assurance Jesus is mine,
O what a foretaste of glory divine
Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
Born of His Spirit, washed in His blood
This is my story, this is my song
Praising My Savior all the day long

Perfect submission, perfect delight!
Visions of rapture now burst on m sight:
Angels descending bring from above
Echoes of mercy, whispers of love
This is my story, this is my song
Praising My Savior all the day long

Perfect submission – all is at rest, I in my Savior am happy and blest;
Watching and waiting, looking above,
Filled with His goodness, lost in His love
This is my story, this is my song
Praising My Savior all the day long. A hymn by Fanny Crosby

Please continue to pray for wisdom for the doctors , us and that God would be glorified and He would continually shape and mold us to be like His Son through this experience.
In My Fathers Hands
Miriam

13 comments:

  1. Oh Miriam...what joy you bring to those around you! I pray that you continue to feel the comfort of your Lord and Saviour. Your testimony is very inspiring, and gives me much to think about:-) Lots of Love & hugs & continued prayers are with you and your family:-)

    Carolyn Prince

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  2. Dear Miriam,
    I admire your strength and your courage and your faith most of all. You are so inspiring and such a beautiful person. My continued prayers are with you and your family.
    Love, hugs & kisses,
    Klare

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  3. You wouldn't know me Miriam, but your words inspire me. I am so glad that you have the peace of God in your heart, the peace that passeth understanding. It's wonderful that your nurse even wanted to know how you were being sustained, and you were able to share the Lord with her. The Lord can use us for His Glory whatever our circumstances if we are just willing. I pray that your pain is kept under control, and I ask the Lord if it is His will to cure you of this awful cancer! Love in Christ, Kathleen Allan, Oakwood Bible Chapel

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  4. This was in today's Star. It's been proven effective against several types. Dr. Hamm is an oncologist at Windsor Met and christian too.

    http://www.windsorstar.com/health/Dandelion+sparks+promising+cancer+research+University+Windsor/3803552/story.html

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  5. Am so blessed and encouraged by your courage through God's grace. Thanks for keeping us up to date so we can pray with our minds and spirits.

    Pastor Tim

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  6. Hello Miriam,
    I'm not sure if you will remember me - I am Melinda Landgraff's sister, Stephanie.
    Your sister Christina & brother Dave have kept me updated on your health, and I have prayed often for you & your family. It is humbling to be able to read your blog, and to see how mightily God is using your influence during this great struggle that you are in. Just wanted to say hi, send a hug, and let you know that many believers are lifting you up in prayer, & trusting that the Lord will give you just what you need for today.

    Love,
    Stephanie Sweet (nee Landgraff)

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  7. I am continuing to pray for you. That is so awesome to hear about the nurse! Her presents us with some great opportunities in the midst of suffering. You are a really inspiring...i love the discription of Heaven....

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  8. Miriam,
    So glad I got to see you for a few moments this weekend. Peter and I will continue to pray for you. You're a delight and an encouragement to all. It's amazing the way God is using your cancer to touch so many other people.

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  9. Miriam,

    You don't know me but I am a friend of your brother Dave. I often pray for you and your family and assure you that I will continue to do so. I cant tell you how thankful I am, that you are sharing with us, your testimony of faith, love and hope through out your trial. You and your family are an inspiration to us all. God never ceases to amaze me in his capacity to redeem and glorify any situation. I am also struggling with some health issues and I have been a little discouraged. I now understand that it is an honor to share in Christ's suffering and God has a purpose for us all. Lots of Love Miriam and God Bless.

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  10. Brenda and Jim TuxfordNovember 23, 2010 at 12:06 PM

    Miriam Dave asked us to pray for you when you were first diagnosed and we did and continue to lift you before the throne. Your testimony of God's amazing love and strength is for us who can only imagine what you are going through. Be encouraged to know Father is well pleased with you. Believing with you for the promise of His healing to be manifested in and through you.
    He sent His WORD and healed you.
    Be blessed as you are a blessing to others.

    brenda and jim tuxford

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  11. When I think of you and your family and pray for you it is is hard to see you go through this. Especially seeing the way in which you have enriched so many other lives. Yet through this dark time the posts on this site suggest you have kindled a fire of interest in the source of your faith and hope. I praise God for your incredible strength.

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  12. Hi Miriam

    How are you doing? Hopefully well. Wishing you and your family a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Take care. Praying that you have a speeding recovery and a better 2011. Take care.

    Marian & Leo xxx ooo

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  13. Ms wiese you are the strongest women i've known and i will keep praying that the lord our god will heal you

    keep trusting the lord
    MichaelMurray

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